Thursday, May 6, 2010
The Working Life
Well, it's official now so I can talk about it. The corporation that I work for has decided to sell my division, most probably putting me out of a job eventually. I've know about this for a few weeks, have felt that this was going to happen for many months, but am still pretty depressed at the thought.
In my more up moments, I know that things will work out - that "one door closes and another opens" and all that. I even have a few moments of excitement about taking a few months off. But in my less happy - more honest moments I wonder what the hell I am going to do! I'll probably get a good severance package, but still need an income - especially for decent health insurance.
I've been in this situation before - hell, my last company went bankrupt - but I am older now - less flexible, less willing to pound the pavement looking for something new. I'd move if I had to...but don't want to. I'll do what I need to do...but wish like hell that this hadn't happened. Remember how I was hoping for an unexciting year? Well..if wishes were horses....
I am also coming to grips with what it means to me to work, and to do a good job and be rewarded for it. I get kudos at work. I have a community of friends. I have a place to go everyday, tasks to perform, a routine to follow. I've always been one of those people who say "boy, if I didn't have to work, I'd never be bored" and now I'm afraid that I would get bored, and don't have the impetus to push myself to do something everyday. I know I'm projecting too far into the future - but my way of doing things is to go to the dark side first and then climb out. I've worked full time - with only two week vacations - since 1977! Can you believe that? If I'd been working for the government - I could retire with a pension.
Oh well...I'll start making a list of things that I can/want to do. I could become a dog trainer, or paramedic, or dog walker, or publish Miss Em, or clean houses, or .....I guess I'll figure it all out.
But shit - I'm just not in the MOOD to think about this.....
Posted by Mim at 9:22 PM