I really haven't been posting much lately. Maybe it seems to you that I have, but I know that I haven't really had my heart into it lately.
Did you ever find yourself in a situation where there is so much going on but you think you can handle it all? I mean really - what are the options? Fall down and cry? Refuse to face facts? In my life - for some ungodly reason - things have been piling up to the point where even pleasurable things seem overwhelming. But in the past day or so, maybe some things are calming down a tiny bit.
1) MIL isn't losing weight anymore. She had basically stopped eating and lost 20 lbs in about two weeks. My brother told her to eat ANYTHING that she liked...so she took him at his word and has been eating ice-cream, and Italian pastries and at least 3 ensure a day. She feels a tiny bit better and at least isn't losing weight. 1 tiny battle won.
2) One of my aunts had open heart surgery the other day and so far has come thru it just fine. It's a load off my mind since my uncle is totally emotionally dependent on her (who isn't after 55 years!) And it's a load off my mom's mind who was totally worried about her - which made me worried about mom.
3) Another aunt, mom's sister, is in a nursing home (but she LOVES it - says' she's never been happier ) but seemed to suddenly go almost completely gaga. Couldn't feed herself, remember much - the works. So sad for mom...this is her big sister. We think it might have been a medication that she is on, so that dosage has been cut in half and lo and behold - mom had an intelligent conversation with her on the phone yesterday. Made her feel good and is a bit of a relief to all.
3) I still don't know about work, but have at least started working on my resume and have sent it to a few people for review. (gotta send it to you grapes....monday!!)
Writing down your worries always helps doesn't it? I've just looked at this list and thought "hmm...that's really not such a long list". But as we all know, it's not the actual things that make one worry so much as the potential for big changes. Old people dying - while natural - is a big change and the shift of family ownership to the next generation while inevitable is not easy. Some cousins have taken on the ownership of certain holidays, but it's not all solidified yet. We've all talked about how to stay connected when the old folks are all gone, and I have complete certainly that we'll figure out a family vacation or weekend away or something. A job loss is just that - a job loss. But it's also such a change in routine, or not seeing the same people every day who know you so well (at least parts of you). Thinking about starting a new job is overwhelming - and I'm going to try to take the advice of many and hold off looking for a few months to settle my head down.
So sports fans - that's whats been keeping me up at night...or sleeping with clenched teeth. My nephews and their college applications are a great distraction. Putting Miss Em into comic form is a great distraction (about 15 - 18 pages drawn, inked and colored so far! - gotta have at least 48 for a trade journal publication!)
I feel so much better having written all this that I WILL show some artwork from last nights class. And you thought you were going to get off easy.....
First attempt. Instructor liked this the best but I think it's a bit wonky around the eyes.
Different technique used here. Actually all night we were supposed to be "drawing" with our eraser. I struggled with that - ALOT.
Last one and one that I liked the best - simply because it wasn't a 3/4 view. Full face on - so relaxing to see both eyes.
On another topic - I had made some paper mache bowls from tissue paper. People loved them at Yart, but they don't appear very practical so didn't sell. Well, my BFF and I were in Michaels a few weeks ago and we found these really nice tall battery operated tea lights so I bought a few for these tissue paper bowls. They work beautifully as shown by these pictures - the first one with a flash and the second one without. Whadda ya think???
Thanks for letting me vent. I'm ready to face the day...