Sunday, March 14, 2010

Exactly what makes me nervous about drawing class

In blogging, I get to show you what art work I like, what I think came out fairly good, and what doesn't embarrass me. In life drawing class...it's all out there. There is no hiding the lousy drawing, the uncomfortable lines, the short legs and long torso. It has been making me a bit nervous, and I keep hiding behind "i've never done this before" - which makes people say "wow, your first drawing class? you're doing great"....which I like to hear. I think this is a pretty human reaction, and I'm not beating myself up over it. But this week something clicked and I stopped being nervous - somehow I felt if something was good...then great! And if it's lousy...well, it's a learning experience and that's what I'm there for.

Feels good to enjoy the moment, and not be uptight about "not being as good as everyone else". So, I will probably continue my Friday night drawing classes (I hope they go thru the summer) and keep learning.

That said...I'm still gonna show you the better stuff!


We had a woman model Friday night and did two poses - one standing and one sitting. The sitting on was very tough - and it is so uncomfortable to look at that I'm not going to post it.

I did two other 5 minute poses, but can't post them - my camera is still MIA and my Blackberry is out of juice after this picture above.

But there's still next week....

My nephews were over yesterday, putting up white tyvek on my basement ceiling, covering that pink insulation stuff and giving a much brighter look to the ceiling. They did a GREAT job and were a total pleasure to work with - and I fed them whenever they started to look limp. Since I had to take everything off the shelves and move a ton of stuff around, there is a major mess down there that I have to tackle today. It's still raining hard so I should have time to complete that lovely task. Afterwards we watched the movie "UP" - which was pretty good. Of course the best thing is just having the boys around for the day - talking about college and school and basketball and baseball and running. They have one more year of high school, and then I suppose, off to college. The down side of twins is that they leave home at the same time, leaving behind a HUGE hole. Part of me wants them to go to a great school and have a wonderful time far from home having new adventures. The other part of me wants them to stay local. Well, a year left to worry about it - but I've already told their mother that I expect to be part of the "going to see schools" trips if possible.

Life just keeps moving along - doesn't it?

13 comments:

Lisa at Greenbow said...

I am glad you are coming to terms with your clases. You will learn so much. I will probably even learn a little by watching your improvement. It is a happy/sad event when the kids go away. You hope they grow up and go out on their own but you fret and stew and that black hole is difficult to get used to.

studio lolo said...

Mim, this is a 'wow' drawing, really! I like that you've let go of the inner critic and the need for perfection or being like the best one in the class. You keep up drawings like these and YOU'LL be the best in the class ;)

Cat said...

Oh...WOW! you are doing great!!!! ;)

ArtistUnplugged said...

Sounds like I would feel in a class, drawing people is something I fear....you have done a great job though!!! My son is taking a class now that is the human form, nude model and the professor is 91, talks like a sailor and is super critical...but he likes my son! It is so wonderful that you have the nephews to help out and enjoy their company.

marianne said...

Great switch you have turned over!
Yeah it is no use comparing yourself or art with others.....
Enjoy your unique talents .
This one is great Mim!
A white ceiling will be so much lighter.
Enjoy your weekend!!!

Susan said...

Fantastic job Mim, you are doing so great! The human figure is one of the hardest things to draw in the world, if not THE hardest, take a deep breath and enjoy the journey - you'll only get better and better!

Glad you had a great day with the boys, I know the time goes by so fast, my oldest is almost 16 - yikes!

Thanks for the follow too, I appreciate it so much!

Cris, Artist in Oregon said...

This is a wonderful drawing. Very good!!! I think you hit the nail on the head about being all out there doing these kind of classes. no hiding what you dont like. Very scary sometimes. Glad you were able to work thru that.

soulbrush said...

this is magical, i love the colours and atmosphere of it. you are brave to even attempt it. yup kids are either a 'pain in the neck or a pain in the heart'.

Lynn said...

I'm impressed. The woman's body flows as an effortless looking drawing, someone who knows what they were doing did this. She is in there Mim and you are letting her out. Keep on keeping on.

As for the boys, wow. That will be hard, but also not. Its fun watching them bloom from a far too.
Lucky us, our MN nephew, who has now finished college, is coming to California for his next leg of life. Southern Ca, which is not close, but he and we are already thinking trips to visit each other.
They grow up but they still stay in our lives.

Katiejane said...

Mim, this picture is great! Don't be so hard on yourself. Your first attempts look much better than mine, so you can feel good about that.

kj said...

1. i love how you love those boys. what a special special relationship. you are the aunt who will make sure they get acting lessons and move to hollywood if that will make them happy, right?

2. it's obvious this drawing is awesomely good! i especially like the white line that starts on her shoulder and works its way down. it works totally.

3. so friday nights won't work for awhile. hmmmmm.. :)

PAK ART said...

This is a wonderful drawing! I think you are doing marvelously (is that a word?) Anyhoo, when my daughter left home I cried for almost a year...but now when she comes home she's bringing two little cuties each time. That part is wonderful!

Michele said...

I used to paint and always felt nervous when I was starting a new project for the exact same reasons you stated ... I was so afraid of messing up or not being good. I felt the same way about sewing. I stopped painting and sewing because of those feelings and I love what you said about it being a learning experience. That's a great way to look at it. Perhaps I'll drag the paints out again.