Even tho' I am home, I am not going into work today - am still too traumatized and need a real day off. Plus my lip would scare everyone - the medically inclined included. I am going to go to the local spa and get a massage, and a haircut. And put my feet up.
The worse part about the last few days was the waiting. Waiting for heart test results - echo cardiogram...stress tests...radioactive injections...pictures in strange cameras. I kept thinking - what is something is really wrong? What if I need a "procedure"? What if..what if...
I am hoping that this is a true wake up call for me - and that I can truly join Lynn's advice about living healthier and taking time for myself that will do me good physically. Why do I neglect my physical well being? Why do I take care of the outside but don't take good care of the inside? I'm trying to figure out why this is? Am I just lazy? Do I think I'm immortal? Do I hate gym exercise so much? (I do love outdoor bike riding but it's getting cold here and that makes it tough).
I used to do indoor spinning class and am going to try that again. It's good for you and makes you a better bike rider when the weather allows it. I HAVE to make myself get up and go to that. I HAVE to take my sneakers with me on a business trip and USE them for walks and/or at the gym. I have to learn to indulge myself with good health and not just with a good book and a cup of coffee in bed.
I know we've all gone thru these questions and that there are no easy answers. I'm hoping that this latest escapade will allow me to have that 'wake up call" that people talk about.
But right now..I'm heading back to bed with a good book and some coffee - there is a time and a place for each one of these indulgent actions and after the past few days - I don't trust myself with exercise alone. DH and I are going for a short hike later - just to get out and about. Its a start....and one has to start somewhere.